Numbness is amongst one of the worst parts of anhedonia... or whatever I'm experiencing. I'm not engaged in my own life; I'm just watching it, not experiencing it.
It's frustrating. The greatest gifts I could ever ask for - my husband and my son - lack emotional meaning. Why??? It makes me angry. Extremely angry. I finally have everything I've wanted, and now I am not a part of it.
I am alone.
Except that you are NOT alone. When I did an internet search on anhedonia I found many people suffering from the same thing. Many of them were angry, like you, and others were too numb even to experience anger. Somehow it seems like it's a good thing that you can feel SOME feelings, at least, even though they aren't positive ones. What do the doctors say?
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