My Grandmother and beloved cousin died this week, and I feel nothing. I haven't shed tears or felt sad. Just neutral. Well, other than some 'pissed-off-ed-ness' (is that a word?) at relatives... I feel NOTHING.
It's like I'm coping by not coping??? Does that make sense?
And, with the Christmas season now here, I still feel nothing. No twinge of joy looking at Christmas lights, or hearing my little guy sing the Grinch song and other Christmas carols. Baking, wrapping presents, making presents... none of these fill me with joy... It feels like 'something to do' more than an occassion...
When will I get positive emotion back?
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